This hatred toward trans people doesn’t come from nowhere. It is a product of oppressive systems that have convinced so many of you that cruelty is conviction, that someone else’s right to exist is a threat to your own. Under all of it is cowardice and greed. The pathetic fear of alienation rooted in standing up for someone else.
The anger toward others because you fear what others will feel if you live your own life honestly. Because for some reason you have found it too hard to reckon with the fact that equity is not subtraction. To be a victim while you hold your boot on the neck of others and call it love.
The machine needs you to believe all of it. And you have been very cooperative. A flock of sheeple, led by your manufactured shepherd built on fantasy and fear of judgment from a false deity.
And so much of it done in the name of the longest-running mythology. I taught CCD. Helped direct church retreats. I left from inside the very mechanism that continues to try to erase people they have othered.
Jesus will be no different from Zeus in a thousand years. The white man on your crosses will be a footnote historians study with pity. Those who followed will be remembered as people suffering from a kind of mass delusion.
What I want you to know is that if god exists, he is watching, and he is not fucking pleased.
Staying stuck is a choice. Choosing cruelty over the evidence, over the person standing in front of you asking to simply exist, that is a choice people make every day. You are not complicated, needing forgiveness and grace. You are just someone who had every chance to be more, found it inconvenient, and called your cowardice conviction.
Some of us stopped being surprised by that. Some of us are tired and fed up.
By Gemma Flora Ortwerth
Gemma Ortwerth 
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